It is stressful to find out that you are going to or have miscarried. Even if you are not overly happy or ready to be pregnant.
You are left with a lot of self doubt.
It gets worse when your body does not naturally pass the egg sack. The stress and worry is taken up a notch.
I adapt to things pretty quickly. I was not overly happy with being pregnant. I was not ready and being nauseous all the time sucked. It was still difficult to hear that I had miscarried. Worse to hear that if my body did not pass it naturally I would have to help it along.
Waiting a week to see if it passed naturally was very difficult. Walking around, trying to be normal, and expecting horrible cramps and bleeding any second. On top of whatever else is going on. It was a rough week.
After talking to my provider and given some options on how to complete the miscarriage, I chose to do it at home with Misopostol.
It was something I could do at home, be comfortable (mostly) and I like to do things on my own.
I was directed to insert four of the teeny Misopostol tabs into my vagina every 8 hours. I was expecting a huge suppository or something. Not the tiny pills. I was also given some anti-nausea pills (they tasted like toothpaste) and Motrin 800, to help with the cramps.
At 6pm on a Friday I inserted the first dose of Misopostol. Within minutes I felt like I had contracted at horrible flu. My joints ached, I got really tired and unfocused and I was running a low fever. I forced myself to stay up for two hours, as the cramps were supposed to start and my body should start passing the egg sack. Nothing… Two hours of sitting, pacing and struggling to stay away and nothing. So I went to bed, setting an alarm for my next dose at 2am.
When my alarm went off at 2am. I got up, still feeling like I was run over by a semi. I used the toilet, mostly checking for blood. None. I cleaned up and inserted the next dose. I only lasted about 15 minutes before I went to sleep. The flu symptoms got worse and I could not stay awake. I set an alarm for 10am for the last dose.
When my alarm went off at 10am, I was not ready to get up. I laid in bed for a good 30 minutes before I realized that my body needed to get up and use the toilet. Not the normal toilet urge. It was closer to the period started early urge.
The second I rolled to get out of bed I could feel the pad filling up. I rushed to the bathroom. I let my body do its thing while I tried to keep the stuff in the pad from getting on the floor. If I had not been so distracted I would have looked to see what was in the bowl.
I will say it was the strangest feeling, to have a good sized smooshy thing just slide and fall out of your vagina. There was no real pain, it just slipped out and Plop.
Once I was all cleaned up I inserted the last dose and laid back down. Less than 15 minutes and I was up again, in the bathroom, trying to keep the stuff in the pad from getting on the floor. A smaller but similar texture slipped out.
Cleaned up and paced around the house. I actually had mild cramps now and hoped the pacing would speed things up and keep my bed from getting messy if I was not quick enough to respond.
All the urgent trips to the bathroom were over by 1230pm. About 2 hours and my body had worked out everything that needed to be passed. I was able to go back to sleep (still felt like I had the flu) and rested until 6pm.
Since then I have only had light bleeding. It is fairly fibrous when I am very active or under a lot of stress, but very light. If it was not for hygiene concerns I could probably get away with changing the pad every 12 hours or less.
In the end it was not a horrible experience to me. I slept through most of it.
A weight is of my shoulders now that it is pretty much over. I just have to wait for the rest of the bleeding to stop, anywhere between 10-14 days. Any longer and I am supposed to see my provider.
You do need to be aware that EVERY woman has different results. I was reading up on it and some pass the egg sack after the first dose. Some have no results and end up using a different method. Some have extremely painful cramps and others have none.
I hope this helps anyone with a miscarriage who plans on taking Misoprostol.